I'm one of the most unselfish people I know. I've got a heart full of people I love, people who are fake to me, and people I barely know. I care about everyone, but I have learned sometimes you can't put everyone before yourself, only the ones who would do the same.
When I was in school the teacher told us to write down what we wanted to be when we grew up. I wrote down "happy". She told me I did not understand the assignment. I told her she did not understand life.
Life changes every minute of everyday. I have lost friends and gained them. I realized friends were never really my friends. I also realized the people I have disliked can make the best friends. I have looked for love, found love, lost love, and found it again. Then I realized I have been loved the whole time. I laugh, I cry, I have laughed until I cried. I wish I did this and really wish I hadnt done that, but I learned from that and really glad I did. I have my ups and Downs. I have looked at others and wished I was them, then I realized I'm glad I'm me. I have loved life and hated life. In the end I just find myself happy to be living life no matter what is thrown at me.
I guess a big part of growing up is dealing with regret and swallowing my pride. There are many things in life I can not go back and change no matter how much I want to. I have had to learn I'm not here for everyone's approval. Every minute is a chance to make your life what you want it. Nobody forgets what happenes the secret is learning from it and learning to deal with it. Mistakes are painful! But they are the only way to tell who you really are. I'm the kind of girl to laugh at my mistakes so sorry if I laugh in your face: ) LOL.
I have made changes for two reasons, either I learned and cared enough to want to or I was hurt enough to have to. I have let people take advantage of me and I'm sure I've done the same. I have accepted way less than I deserve sometimes. I have learned from bad choices. Even though I know there are things I can't get back and people who wont be sorry, I know better next time. I will not get unlimited chances in life. Nothing is worse than missing out on an opportunity that can change your life.
I believe in love, lust, and romance. I don't need the perfect equation, I just want someone to go crazy out of his mind for me. I want to feel passion,heat,and madness. I want it all. Life is too short to waste a minute with someone who doesn't appreciate and value you.
I am a little stubborn, a little bitchy. I push people and I push myself. I was taught never to take life forgranted, to live a little, love with everything I have, to never give up, to believe in myself and most of all to fight for myself and the ones I love. I will do nothing but that.
I'm not a little girl anymore. For anyone who's ever betrayed me, intentionally hurt me, or two timed me, I don't hold grudges but I will say karmas a bitch and you will get what's yours. A positive attitude will not solve all my problems but it will annoy enough people to make it worth it.
I wont ever let life put me down. I just have to know that I'm me. At some points life changes but life doesn't do it for me. I have to seek and find out how that works. I wont let anyone stop me from doing what I need to do. There is a wonderful new chapter in my crazy book of life after more hard lessons learned.